2 out of 3...not that bad!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
PEACE
Today Price fell down the entire flight of front stairs. I can't believe it. I turned my head for a second to put Street down for his nap and then I hear the thuds. I really think it scared him more than anything. He cried for about 3 minutes and then was ready to get back on the floor and play. He had a little blood on his lip and a few bumps on his head but nothing else. Surprisingly, I was not panicked. Sure, my heart beat a little faster as I heard it happen and I ran right to get him, but I did not panic.
Panic is in my nature. I am the most fearful, anxious person I know. Seriously. It's hard to admit, but I had a couple of panic attacks right after Nathan and I got married that landed me in the minor ER. I thought I was dying.
Slowly but surely the Lord has done a work in me. I wasn't sure I was going to share this as we haven't told many people or even family, but Price's MRI last week did not result in the news we had hoped for. In fact, it was not at all what we expected. The neurologist and radiologist had a consult about it, that's how not typical the results were. We were back at Texas Children's the following day subjecting Price to more testing because they now think what he has could be degenerative. Like I said, not at all what we expected. Not at all what we have been praying for. Degenerative? That's like the worst word I have ever heard. Especially when it applies to something my baby could have.
Did I cry when the neurologist called me on the phone? Of course, I have been crying all week. Does it keep me up at night wondering about the future? Sure, I think about it all day and all night. But did I panic? No. If this is how the Lord chooses to glorify Himself through us and through Price's life then I say okay. It's not without tears or sadness or us pleading to the Lord for something different, but it IS well with my soul. I am not trying to make myself sound all perfect and together because I am definitely not. Not at all. But, I am trying to make the point that the Lord has done a great work in me and in our family. Anxiety has no place in all this. Panic and worry has no place.
Our Sunday school teacher told us to focus on two things this Christmas season: His GLORY and His PEACE. Peace does not mean having all things lined up and to be without suffering. This is what it used to mean to me. It is being in the midst of pain and suffering and still experiencing the peace that only He can bring. I feel it, Nathan feels it. Peace.
Do you have it?
Panic is in my nature. I am the most fearful, anxious person I know. Seriously. It's hard to admit, but I had a couple of panic attacks right after Nathan and I got married that landed me in the minor ER. I thought I was dying.
Slowly but surely the Lord has done a work in me. I wasn't sure I was going to share this as we haven't told many people or even family, but Price's MRI last week did not result in the news we had hoped for. In fact, it was not at all what we expected. The neurologist and radiologist had a consult about it, that's how not typical the results were. We were back at Texas Children's the following day subjecting Price to more testing because they now think what he has could be degenerative. Like I said, not at all what we expected. Not at all what we have been praying for. Degenerative? That's like the worst word I have ever heard. Especially when it applies to something my baby could have.
Did I cry when the neurologist called me on the phone? Of course, I have been crying all week. Does it keep me up at night wondering about the future? Sure, I think about it all day and all night. But did I panic? No. If this is how the Lord chooses to glorify Himself through us and through Price's life then I say okay. It's not without tears or sadness or us pleading to the Lord for something different, but it IS well with my soul. I am not trying to make myself sound all perfect and together because I am definitely not. Not at all. But, I am trying to make the point that the Lord has done a great work in me and in our family. Anxiety has no place in all this. Panic and worry has no place.
Our Sunday school teacher told us to focus on two things this Christmas season: His GLORY and His PEACE. Peace does not mean having all things lined up and to be without suffering. This is what it used to mean to me. It is being in the midst of pain and suffering and still experiencing the peace that only He can bring. I feel it, Nathan feels it. Peace.
Do you have it?
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Three musketeers
Ellery, Ella, and Madi Kate and the moms went to see a cute little production of The Nutcracker at the ballet studio where Ellery takes ballet class once a week.
The girls had a great time watching the big girls dance, sipping "tea", and eating lunch. I think Ellery was on the fence about ballet until now...she has decided that she wants to keep dancing so she can be in The Nutcracker one day.
How do these three go from this
to this?
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Meeting Street
Street meets Aunt Sherry...
and papa...
and I know my nanny would have loved to meet him. she was crazy about babies!
and papa...and I know my nanny would have loved to meet him. she was crazy about babies!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Street is 2 months!
At 2 months Street weighs 15 pounds. His percentile is HIGH (meaning it's not even on the charts). The doctor told me today that the average one year-old weighs 20 pounds and that we might be looking at a new carseat by 6 months. Geez.
His height is 24 inches (85th percentile) and his head of course is in the 90th percentile. He's a big boy all around.
He is starting to give us glimpses of his personality. His name really suits him. He smiles all the time and has started "talking" to us. He is so strong. He holds his head up so well for a 2 monther and the doctor today told us his tone and strength are wonderful. She said he's ready for the bumbo. As you know, this is something that we do not take for granted. The doctor did notice a small heart murmur today at his appointment but she said she is not worried about it. I am not going to worry either.
At 2 months, Street still loves to be held and to be part of the action. He also loves to have one hand in your shirt while being held. He can raise one eyebrow. Everyone comments on his reddish-blonde hair and his pretty skin. He is eating about 6 -7 times a day and has been consistently sleeping for at least a 4-5 hour stretch at night.
At 2 months of age, we can't imagine life without him. The smell of his bald little head, the grins and coos, the way he still rages when he's hungry or tired, his serious little face that looks so intently into our eyes...we love it all (well maybe not the raging, but the rest of it).
Sunday, December 5, 2010
We know that you can...
We got up extra early this morning to get everyone dressed, fed, and out the door to church. Ellery had her first choir performance during both services. Ellery and her bestie, Madi Kate, were front and center singing their little hearts out!
Because of this choir performance, Nathan and I headed back from a wedding in College Station late last night. I now realize that we needed to be at our church service this Sunday. It has been really amazing to see the Lord lead us step by step on this journey with Price. People we meet, places we are led...could all be looked at as mere coincidences but we choose to believe that He is lighting the path in front of us little by little. The message at church was Jesus Heals. It was awesome. If you want to listen to it you can here (it is part of the Jesus Saves series). At the end of the service our Pastor asked for those who needed healing to stand as well as those who wanted to intercede for someone close to them. Of course, Nathan and I stood and we cried. The entire congregation prayed for everyone standing. There is nothing more desperate than a mother or father pleading to the Lord to heal their child. We are in a desperate place, my friends, as we know that He alone is the only one with answers and the healing that we so desperately seek. So to quote our pastor we will continue to pray, "Lord we know that you can heal Price, and we pray that you will heal Price."
Because of this choir performance, Nathan and I headed back from a wedding in College Station late last night. I now realize that we needed to be at our church service this Sunday. It has been really amazing to see the Lord lead us step by step on this journey with Price. People we meet, places we are led...could all be looked at as mere coincidences but we choose to believe that He is lighting the path in front of us little by little. The message at church was Jesus Heals. It was awesome. If you want to listen to it you can here (it is part of the Jesus Saves series). At the end of the service our Pastor asked for those who needed healing to stand as well as those who wanted to intercede for someone close to them. Of course, Nathan and I stood and we cried. The entire congregation prayed for everyone standing. There is nothing more desperate than a mother or father pleading to the Lord to heal their child. We are in a desperate place, my friends, as we know that He alone is the only one with answers and the healing that we so desperately seek. So to quote our pastor we will continue to pray, "Lord we know that you can heal Price, and we pray that you will heal Price."
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Half-Birthday
This year, Ellery's class celebrates half-birthdays for those kids that have birthdays in the summer months. I love it and think we might keep the tradition. Ellery's will fall on December 14th, and she is loving that it will be during Christmas time (so different than the hot, muggy month of June).
She found these in a magazine and has her heart set on taking these cupcakes to her class party.
What's so special about these cupcake toppers is that not only are they the original Rebel Alliance characters, but that they include Princess Leia. Poor Leia is left out of everything. It really is a bummer for the little girl Star Wars fans.
